All I have is the memories of the past. everybody hates me. I wish they didn't hate me. hate is highly contagious. they say family is the most important thing in life. my past deeds have driven my family away & out of my life. I have begged for their forgiveness, and they refused to show mercy. to forgive me. forgive Larry isn't on their minds. everybody.......oh forget it. this has to stop. I HAVE LET DOWN MYSELF!!!