You put wear and tear down onto me, I feel my heart weaken. Do you ever stop, to even take a look at yourself? I can’t take the pain, it’s breaking me. Why won’t it stop, will this be the end? The tears slowly fall, only on the inside. If this was to stop, maybe I could be normal again? My blood rushes, wishing to be free for once again. I dream of the razor, to take away my pain. I reach for it, only to be stopped by my inner self. I've fought this battle once, can I do it again? If I give in just this once, can I stop myself again? The burning grows as I give in, the razor going into my wrist. The feeling grows I want more, I wish to die again. I can’t control myself, my inner demons have been unleashed. The pain fades as I go deeper, I can’t take it here. My blood slowly spills out, no more pain for me. Yet, I can’t seem to go deep enough, my life stays here. The pain is only temporarily gone, it will return within minutes. My vision is clear, no longer blurry. I move to my legs, cutting deeply. I just want the pain gone, but that will never happen. No matter how many scars, I’ll never die… Can I just disappear now, into the shadows? That’s all I ask, is for my body to accept this death. I just wanna know, what’s it’s like to be pain free. Is it as good, as I've been hoping? Or is it just like now, only numbness? My vision blurred and I smiling, this is my final end.
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